目前分類:雜感 (36)
- May 17 Mon 2010 10:55
喜宴有感 留詩一首
- Apr 18 Sun 2010 19:34
人不染紅塵 紅塵自染人
- Dec 25 Fri 2009 23:25
家人,不可沈受之重
昨天聖誕夜去逛好市多,一方面是買聖誕節給學生的巧克力,另外也順道買了好市多的熟食牛肉捲回家,到家後先叫了我媽下來吃,然後就把牛肉捲放在烤箱裡熱,前一天開的紅酒也從冰箱拿出來回溫,後來又叫了我媽好幾次,等了老半天,烤箱的牛肉捲也熱了,我媽還是沒動靜。又叫了一次,我媽只沒好氣的回答,"要吃什麼啦?" 掃興,我正打算自己吃,我媽又從樓上叫到:"看你爸爸回來要不要吃阿?"我聽了就有氣,因為我媽是傳統的女性,什麼都以我爸為主,可是我爸回來都可能七晚八晚了,而且通常他沒有吃宵夜的習慣,我當下就很不高興,重點要弄給我媽吃,結果又牽到我爸,什麼都是以我爸為主,我真的厭惡這種模式。紅酒倒一倒,回到房間邊喝紅酒邊出隔天的小考。
- Nov 20 Fri 2009 00:31
Line of Flight
越來越頻繁地,厭倦餐桌上無意義的對話,厭倦矯飾、計算,對別人的品頭論足。厭倦吆喝別人盡其本分,如果要混,混到地獄裡去好了!關我屁事!!回到家後,我啜著紅酒,廳著拉圖指揮的西貝流士,雖未完全沈浸在音樂的世界中,但已是一種逸逃。看完了柯慈的「屈辱」,如同譯者,我亦感到如同譯者所感覺的,一種深沈的痛。故事中露西被強暴的痛楚,種族間的暴力,為了求生存不得已委曲求全。年過半百的教授的無止盡的慾望,重複敗德的行為,讓我深感戚戚焉。已有幾分微醺的我,只想脫逃,或是沈默,作為一堵牆,和周圍隔開!書本,音樂,這不是美多了嘛?我已厭倦了上班平板,緊湊,無意義的一面。如同德勒茲所說,我必須創造逃逸路線(line of flight),不然我會悶死,我會發瘋!!
- May 18 Fri 2007 16:57
Monitoring the exam
Now I am monitoring the students taking the second monthly exam, and I am observing them again! Watching them and writing these words. A girl, with long, straight, central-parted hair, is gently touching her upper lips while pondering the questions. Another girl, who has a nickname “baby,” looks serene while working on the papers. Still, another girl, with her elbow rested on the desk, is writing on the exam paper earnestly. This is a history exam, which is not very difficult, I guess. Even I can work out the answers to some questions myself. How do you know the exam is easy? Some boys’ heads have rested on the desk for quite a while. I guess they must be exhausted, after a day’s exam. Luckily, the weekend is coming up, and there is no courses on this Saturday! Good for students, and also myself.
Looking at the students’ faces, I wonder how heavy burden the study has brought to them, with their life loaded with so many exams and classes. With such a tight schedule, how could they have time to browse the abundant books in the library? How would they have time to breathe for a while, to expose themselves to another world unfolded by books, I mean, no textbooks. “Muss es sein?” (Must it be so?) said so by Beethoven in his late life. I hope the answer is not “Es muss sein!” (It must be so).- Feb 08 Thu 2007 18:49
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